today is a bad day sia

did alot of things..and end up eating lunch really late. At 2:17 den i get to go for my lunch. Too tired..so was working at 30% of my speed. Maybe this time round is cos Dr liew (wa liew?) threw me his samples to run as well. Hai..im startin to be loaded (free labour?..i guess) with work. Filling haiyan's shoes is hard..anyway..so ran. Sample preparation is disorientated without my beloved (he's a great help..really) qing hui. Shi fu!! He's also from poly..sp. Nice quiet guy..reminds me of ghim hui..ahh..

So i do and do..and ate lunch alone. Jm msged at 11:45..say maybe eating at business. When i asked when..he said now. =x That's 4 ppl down for lunch. Fiona msged really late..at around 1:45. I was abt to finish...last part of loading and sample preparation. End up..she da pao. Den i msged wanting at 1:15 like that..wanting eating already. Ok..cut short..i ate alone. Nvm actually..not like its the 1st time. Hehe. But it rained..so i consumed abit of the splatterin rain in my saba set. Tea from jap store is bagus..got this cleansing feeling. Went back..lalala. Den i stumbled on my 1st mistake today. Suppose to dissolve (correct word?) my Ab with skin milk. I went to put PBST..=x And my supervisor was juz telling me..our Ab abit precious..so muz careful. Sobx..i cant believe i did such a dumb mistake. She used a new tone on me..an upset voice. So can figure la..haiz. Im totally disappointed with myself.

Ya..so worked till 7:10. Fiona also worked till ard that time. Today shagged sia. I hate my block's sercurity thing. If i am to go toilet..i can go out..but cannot come in the same way. So i need to walk this big round..which is argh..den today..i want to go toilet on my way out..and decided not to. Haiz...sad sia

Harlem's chun ni song is nice. I like his 1st 2 lines the best..something abt 2 ppl quieting beside each other, den "qian ni de shou, ni que ku hong le yan jing" ..those lines describe "wu nai" de feeling very well..to me la. Ok..better not think into it..heart abit pain again. Y pain? Cos i realise relationships revolves around being natural. And also, friends to bring two people together becomes a unescapable factor for a longer term basis. These facts make me feel demoralised and disappointed. Is this the way to be? Wasnt wat i really had in mind..but facts are facts. R they facts?

out`z