a few years ago..

we finally confessed. Everything was perfect, the happiness of a love acknowledged and returned. I didnt hear her voice, but the words on screen automatically translates itself to that special and warm voice of hers. I remembered indulgence, peace and an urge for tommorow to come so that I can see her. Once again, the atmosphere...so perfect. And then I screws up by doing something really....stupid.

I heard the air shriek, the heart cracking and the horror of my actions. Surronding me, they cut with the pain of many. Disappointment. Why do I simply have to screw and ruin that happy moment. It truely hurts to have your loved one angry with you. Its a...hard to describe feeling. I felt like crying..all I wanted was to make the moment better, but I failed to control and the incident happens. I thought about leaving online life..especially mirc. Listening to a song now, not helping.

Its that same feeling now. The disappointment and rejection to self. Miserable may be a proper description, but it is also deserved. High up above the clouds, and then he comes crashing down.

Im sorry I screwed up and spoilt your wonderful day. Really. :(