Monday, September 20, 2004
Ten
So it starts.
Today is the official countdown to NS. Im left with 10 days..ten days before i start on erm..goin into my manhood (=X)
Wasted today by playing game and getting mentally prepared. Things to anticipate? Stripped of freedom, military-style training, depression, lots of bullshit, all kinds of people, time management exercises, loneliness, lots of old frens, lots of new frens, seriousness instilled, maturation, sense of urgency instilled, lots of self-talk, no more internet, no more games, battered minds, lack of sleep, no more familiar smelly old pillows and blankets, mom's cooking GONE!, no more hair, more bullish strength, fitness, waking up.
A little pat on my head and a nudge to myself.
"U're afraid?"
"(smiles back)"
"(shrugs and smiles too)"
outz`papa, mama
5:05 pm