thoughts that went through my head today:

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forgot to bring ur driving booklet.
who's fault izzit? YOURS
delayed ur driving plan by 20+ days
who's fault izzit? YOURS
unable to book TP before NS
who's fault izzit? YOURS
failed to cancel 2 driving lessons
who's fault izzit? YOURS
wasted $120
who's fault izzit? YOURS
earilest TP is 13/10/04 as on today
who's fault izzit? WHO'S????? YOUR F**KIN OWN FAULT!!!!!!!
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today..i was geniunely angry and pissed. With who? MYSELF. "wat was the whole ****** point of tryin to pia ur driving?" came back from bbdc with a black face. Prudential ppl at the bus terminal steered from my path..cos i stared straight with glarin eyes. I couldnt forgive myself for that good 30 minutes? Ended up..i gave myself till 6 to cool down. deep breaths (which used to work) didnt work...but it was when i saw sunia (i dunno how to spell), i gave a little smile, waved goodbye when i suddenly cheered up. Didnt know a smile from myself can cheer me up, it really lifted the spirits..but the bad mood came back soon. Didnt stop it either. Then reached 73-02-24..went to the toilet..smiled at myself in the mirror and it got better. I need to find good "peace be with u" methods..:)

kkz..little recap of my little busy schedule for the past 2 days..it was fun

thursday:
11:00 - met with juniors..help them with project
12:00 - ran away to print report
12:30 - run ard lookin for hup
12:45 - canteen 4 with triplets!!
2:00 - triplet went off
2:10 - went back lab
4:15 - went to find py
4:30 - buy stuff
4:35 - went to canteen 1 to eat and prepare for lesson
5:20 - crashed my BELOVED ex-student's class!!! muaaaack!
7:15 - decide song
8:10 - went town find hup they all
11:40 - took 14 home
12:00 - back home

[nope..i hardly had rests between the events]

friday
1:05 - met maggie and julie (MGS girls~) and hup
2:20 - went sch to get grad photos, hand in journal, gv Dr Z e MGS present
2:50 - met with meng
3:00 - went off
3:10 - met maggie at kap again to get eric's present
3:20 - 61 to bb
4:10 - reached bbdc
4:30 - sat down at bbdc canteen, drink teh and scold myself
5:20 - reached sch
5:30 - reached practice place
5:45 - cooled down
5:50 - eat maggie julie's sweets!
6:00 - practice
9:40 - end of practice
10:05 - alamin dinner
10:35 - off to home
11:30 - back home

[friday even worse...NOT a single break..i used my legs 80% of the times from 2:20 - 11:30]

yep..tat's it :)

talkin to my dad always calms me down. love my dad :)

outz`was! PISSED WITH MYSELF