A private thought and post:

Currently...confused. The insides swirl quite a many times. Wishin thinkings and feelings could be juz a twee more stable. *frowns and raise eyebrow*

I dont understand. After entering NS, the sense of being totally unsatisfied with minor things and the low level of tolerence is getting "stronger". its like i get very easily irritated at the slightest mistakes or distractions. very strong during playing of games..i literally shout and voice my anger (temporary one) everything my brother accidently hits me (friendly fire). its like..i wanted everything to go my way tat kinda feeling? and if it doesnt..argh..my top will juz blow. another point. used to go with the belief "accept people for who they are. Look not for ppl's weak points but rather, their strong points". cant do tat these days. perhaps its due to seeing f***ed up people in army? exposure...(shakes head). eg: someone over msn mentioned "the malay". gosh..he has a name..not "the malay". ahh..skip the mentioning of egs. boils me even more.

the worst part? i cant come into terms with myself..cos i simply feel like slacking and bummin my holis away. nver felt so lazy and slack before. i need to learn my patience back..and i have no idea how. was it because of that single word she mentioned? life can sometimes be so complicated and unmanageable huh? (question mark...)

outz`i lost the peace